I wanted to just be happy. Get a piece of heaven. A tiny piece. A little bit.
Why?
Why give your child a chocolate? What is an adult buys a bloated car? Why do teenage cool shirt? The question is: what is it all about?
Well, to answer this question. In order to experience a little happiness and intimacy. To be happy, even though the moment and have something out of life.
With whom?
The only person I had time to really fall in love in her short, quiet life. Wondering why the sky? Because it is beautiful, unlimited and starlit night. Because heaven is a dream. Is the same as him.
Beautiful-like silhouette of my beloved.
Unlimited-like his mind.
Starlit-like smile juicy paragraph ...
dream-because it is the dream of many women.
probably think I'm crazy, lost his mind. Yes! Freaked out by and for him!
why he?
Bo alone understood me, loved. And contrary to my ensuring that I can handle herself with all the problems and adversities stood with me in spirit and support. He believed that somewhere on the bottom is in me sensitive, small, scared girl. It was he who discovered her and take care her. Just be with me. And when I was lousy sense of humor, he made a fool of myself, if only amuse me.
Why the ...?
As soon as the feeling came over me so quickly ulotniło. He became cold, insensitive, jerk. He forgot that I too have feelings. Do not listen to my pleas, pleas, do not listen to me. He did not know that the one-sided love is killing me. That his "out of love is" destroying me.
But I knew what it is. I knew that none will pass, and yet I trusted him. But I did not predict that it is capable of betray me. Being with me, go to another woman. How to abandon old dog niekochanego by anyone. So just say end with us. It was instantaneous.
tell me that someone can not buy love, can not on her merit and should not strive for it. You're right. But is it wrong? Bad that I wanted to stop him from leaving. I wanted to be close to someone, whom I loved more than life? Was it bad that I tried as soon as I could to keep him with you? After all I've done enough for him! For so many had to go to be with him. I had to devote so much! I know it's silly, you can not order someone to love the power! As if it were at all possible ...
I can not understand why he left ... After all, when he was with me had practically everything. I was able to do many things for him.
I was naive and stupid. I was ...
I gave up to use! Now they say love is blind . Especially the first, passionate, immature.
But I'm still able to do anything for him. For what did not go to extremes? Which woman would you do? But if I had to turn back time, I would do the same thing.
Stupid!
After two years I'm still at his every beck and call. All I would ask and do not zawahałabym up.
Follow foolishly! I know that does not love me, that stayed with me, but I still want to be with him.
I'm crazy when I see the same hands touching another woman, and whispers in their ears probably fine compliments. After I did the same thing!
I get mad when you do not talk to him several times a day.
- Why did you do? - Asked psychologist with a weary expression on his face. He was bored a few hours sitting in his cell.
- Why killed?
- Yes, why did you kill-repeated.
- Because I wanted to be just happy ... - prisoner began his story from the beginning.
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