Being together -
destroy themselves
Cause I'm hood
Which goes
lucky
Being together -
destroy themselves
Cause I'm hood
Which goes
lucky
/ 10.04.2010 /
sky fell
no, no sky
something on the ground
heart burst
thunderstruck
in the heart
whose souls
not ripped
Christmas falls
those tears
and every tear
soul burns
screaming that
Poland tone
that silence
much say
wind will
echo always
in me will never
not fall asleep
not. I told myself firmly in the spirit. I'm not going to school today, I'll do a truancy. As I thought, so I made only if it was a good idea? It may be interesting for a while, but then I was dying of boredom. The lack of a better deal went to chat and has logged in as romantyczka_17 Incorrect. Although to 17 years, I have a lot of time, however, who describes his real name? In fact, still bored, because my interlocutors were not too interesting. When I was already hooked me to log out nick- Angel_on. I was, trying to convince the man who he is.
Good talk to us very well. When he learned that one of the main directors of the well-known radio, I was surprised. And when he still wanted to meet me, I clicked out of joy. At his request I gave him my cell number myself wondering, after which we finished our chat, because he had to go back to work. After a short time I heard a melody coming from my phone. When I looked at the little display, which does not sat down with terror, yet the excitement.
-What? "- Said with a heavy throat.
- Well hello, "said melodious voice - Tu Irek. You know what, I thought that we might meet today. I'll be passed close to your school.
- Today? - Almost squeaked into the phone. I was not in the least prepared. And honestly? I was scared as hell.
- Yes, I am leaving in two weeks a month and we have no chance.
For a brief moment I thought frantically over the decision.
- Zgoda said quietly, spitting on the chin for my stupidity, but there was no turning back.
We agreed to meet for an afternoon hour. Pulled together two friends that helped me prepare.
- How old is she? - It was said the first question.
- Thirty-eight replied shyly.
shriek and began to demand more details. When I told them about his work, it was too much for them as for one day. They helped me find the right clothes and makeup done fine.
- I am a little afraid-acknowledged-in the end I do not know, do not even know how it looks and I go to a meeting!
- I have an idea! - Screamed Jolly-call you and go there to disconnecting. If, as we all hear and like something, it will call the police.
I looked at her with a little doubtfully.
- But what do I I'll do with this phone? But I will not be holding it in your hands! It's a little strange to look, do not you think?
- tucked into a jacket pocket.
Once approaching the hour I was increasingly anxious and finally had to leave. The girls walked a few steps behind me. I felt the vibrations picked up and hid the phone, as handled. I said something to the test in order to check whether they will hear me. It's just that there was a small problem. People watched out for me. She lowered her head hiding behind the curtain of hair.
searched the car of a given brand and have not seen him anywhere. My eyes caught the man. He stood next to a luxury car and waved to me. I took two deep breaths and I set off in his direction. God. But I'm stupid. What was I thinking at all? Calm down. Pull yourself together and smile.
- Hi-I heard a lovely voice-get in the car.
- Um-hesitated. Things like that, getting into a car odpadało.
- You can not do-he looked at me.
And it would be so much about my willpower . He pointed me to the front seat, and I dutifully went inside I feel the duty of the phone in your pocket.
I was impressed. I've never sat in the car so szpanerskim, everything inside was black, shiny leather and complemented all quiet music coming from the speakers. I was so stressed out that they do not remember anything from our brief conversation. When I left this gem I found in my friend's extensive website. On their faces painted to shock.
- Did you just got off of this car? - Jola screamed.
- Yes.
- Are you crazy? When I saw how to get in there, my heart stopped! I did not hear you, just some shit! I prayed that you just do not get away! - She was screaming and waving hands.
- I also want to sit there for a while! - Squeaked second, then unloaded all the tension and laughter wybuchłyśmy
- Okay, talk like that? - Dopominały a summary of my meeting.
I described to them everything that I managed to remember.
- Wow-summed together.
I wanted to just be happy. Get a piece of heaven. A tiny piece. A little bit.
Why?
Why give your child a chocolate? What is an adult buys a bloated car? Why do teenage cool shirt? The question is: what is it all about?
Well, to answer this question. In order to experience a little happiness and intimacy. To be happy, even though the moment and have something out of life.
With whom?
The only person I had time to really fall in love in her short, quiet life. Wondering why the sky? Because it is beautiful, unlimited and starlit night. Because heaven is a dream. Is the same as him.
Beautiful-like silhouette of my beloved.
Unlimited-like his mind.
Starlit-like smile juicy paragraph ...
dream-because it is the dream of many women.
probably think I'm crazy, lost his mind. Yes! Freaked out by and for him!
why he?
Bo alone understood me, loved. And contrary to my ensuring that I can handle herself with all the problems and adversities stood with me in spirit and support. He believed that somewhere on the bottom is in me sensitive, small, scared girl. It was he who discovered her and take care her. Just be with me. And when I was lousy sense of humor, he made a fool of myself, if only amuse me.
Why the ...?
As soon as the feeling came over me so quickly ulotniło. He became cold, insensitive, jerk. He forgot that I too have feelings. Do not listen to my pleas, pleas, do not listen to me. He did not know that the one-sided love is killing me. That his "out of love is" destroying me.
But I knew what it is. I knew that none will pass, and yet I trusted him. But I did not predict that it is capable of betray me. Being with me, go to another woman. How to abandon old dog niekochanego by anyone. So just say end with us. It was instantaneous.
tell me that someone can not buy love, can not on her merit and should not strive for it. You're right. But is it wrong? Bad that I wanted to stop him from leaving. I wanted to be close to someone, whom I loved more than life? Was it bad that I tried as soon as I could to keep him with you? After all I've done enough for him! For so many had to go to be with him. I had to devote so much! I know it's silly, you can not order someone to love the power! As if it were at all possible ...
I can not understand why he left ... After all, when he was with me had practically everything. I was able to do many things for him.
I was naive and stupid. I was ...
I gave up to use! Now they say love is blind . Especially the first, passionate, immature.
But I'm still able to do anything for him. For what did not go to extremes? Which woman would you do? But if I had to turn back time, I would do the same thing.
Stupid!
After two years I'm still at his every beck and call. All I would ask and do not zawahałabym up.
Follow foolishly! I know that does not love me, that stayed with me, but I still want to be with him.
I'm crazy when I see the same hands touching another woman, and whispers in their ears probably fine compliments. After I did the same thing!
I get mad when you do not talk to him several times a day.
- Why did you do? - Asked psychologist with a weary expression on his face. He was bored a few hours sitting in his cell.
- Why killed?
- Yes, why did you kill-repeated.
- Because I wanted to be just happy ... - prisoner began his story from the beginning.
blue in the blue box
reddish sunset
let us drink the cup before
will spread more easily if and fingers
from each other when suddenly a hand hand on your land
and now it's just the same in other approaches
sprinkles the snow outside the window up - helplessness
throws us in the blue white blue
and we, in spite of build a house
Today again had to go to the hospital for chemo. Last often wondered what it all? After what prolongs their life and so if it is the worst quality? Practically lived at the hospital, all the staff knew her name, which was proof of its frequent presence in the place, so much hated by them. Was not going on dates, discos, cinema. Nowhere. It does not really lead a normal teenage life, because it was not. But asking yourself these questions, remind yourself of Radek. He was lucky and did not have cancer and all possible metastases. He had a normal aneurysm. With cancer, it looks like a runny nose with tonsillitis. He waited a month for surgery and often appeared in the hospital, but the date appointed him a few days.
- How do you feel? - Her mother stroked her cheek tenderly. She saw that chemistry was to Kasia hard to bear. As always, so this time was not without convulsions. Before she could reply to the nurse entered the room together przyprowadzając Radek.
- How are you, darling? - She asked, placing his hand on her forehead-You have a fever. Soon I'll call the doctor. She said she then went out with the girls mother.
- You look awful Kate-Radek sat at the foot of the bed. Always addressed with it in a foreign version of the name Catherine.
- Your honesty is a knock-hardly what she said these words, bent her head over the bowl and threw up water. The boy approached her and gently stroked the back wanting to alleviate the suffering of his friend. At first Kate did not like when Radek was close during its chemistry. She preferred that no one had seen her in such a state, but when she forgave not get used, and finally sought his presence.
At a time when he had to confess his gratitude to the hall entered the doctor looking at her with concern. He knew that death in her case is not inevitable, ask yourself the question: when? To conceal his sad thoughts brought face artificial smile trained doctor.
- come to my attention that my pet has a fever-he put the device to the ear and pulled out after a while checking the temperature .- In fact, you are feverishness, but do not worry about it, this is one of the elements of chemistry. The organism that responds to the administration of this drug. He smiled at the young and looked at his watch.
- Just a little bit and you'll be free pomęczysz, Kasia. He nodded and left the rider.
time it passed quickly with Radek. The boy always knew how to amuse and occupy her time when she needed. He was the only person who looked at her without mercy and compassion. Even her mom, though trying to hide it, looked at her with fear. When her stomach calmed down and no longer had any reflexes emetics emerged from the hospital alongside Radek, supported on the arm of his olds.
During the past Radek twelve months we became Kasi, like son. She was happy that her daughter is someone you can talk and not feel uncomfortable with their appearance and especially the lack of hair. When you came out, survived the collapse, from which she thanks him. How were all surprised when shown a shaved head. Barry laughed at him, but deep down she was satisfied that he did it for her. However, Dorothy-mom Kate could not get over to Radek. For her, it was more than cut hair, it was a sign of solidarity with her child.
- Kate broke the silence Radek .--What about the cinema tomorrow? Just do not flash, now I know you sent it .- sly grin.
Barry hesitated. She did not like to stay among people because it bore the curious glances posyłanych under her address.
- Well-said, amazed at her docility. She was not alone, as Radek and Dorota have reacted similarly.
- That I'll pick you up at about twenty?
- Consent-smiled and climbed into the car closing the door behind him.
Not specifically elegantly dressed, he came out with the assumption that that would not put, no hair all the spoils. Radek showed up on time. Kate's not feeling the best after the previous chemistry, but I swore to myself that today there will be no question about the disease. Although one day turn into a teenager with no problems. Ordinary girl.
- Nice you have a scarf-hat skompelentował Radek Kasi.
- At least does not deter people like different-she laughed recalling the scarves in the skull .- And it anyway, what are we going?
- You'll see-he smiled and gave her his hand by adding the same encouragement.
After purchasing the tickets and popcorn, Radek took her to the theater. They sat down at the end as requested by Kate and watched the video with interest. For her it was something more than just a movie, it was the illusion of normal life, for which so much missed, and you would never have had. Rarely smiled, and as I always do it somewhere out there, lurked at the bottom of sadness that always win. But not this time. The boy could guess what it feels girl and why so ordinary a thing as going to the cinema, has made her face brightened. Promised myself that from now on will be more to it came out, because despite the fact that people just avoid her company needed . After the film he wanted to take her somewhere else, but decided not to overwork, he saw, despite her assurances that everything is in order, it is already tired. He walked her home, putting in the hands of parents of girls. At the farewell he said that he has surgery the following day and cut his aneurysm.
In the hospital, going to the operating room in the corridor he found Kate. Hardly what she could sit on a chair. She was pale and seemed more tired than the previous day.
- not enough of hospitals, what Kate? - He joked. She went to his bed on shaky legs.
- you are always with me when I have chemo, so I return the favor-she smiled, but it was that made her a little effort. She was very weak.
- Hi-grabbed her by the hand in a calming gesture-it's just an aneurysm, I'm will, I will cut off it to me and I'll be like new.
- Sorry, just what else but to wait. It's always I'm the one to which everyone is waiting. He laughed softly.
- For once, we can swap roles. Come on, do not panic. I'll be fine. But you do not look good. You should relax .- He pressed her hand tighter and let .- Wait here for me .- The last words uttered seriously.
- I'll wait-she whispered.
sent her last smile, and disappeared behind the door with the nurse.
Radka Operation passed without any complications, but after his awakening, everything changed, was to be lucky, and there were tears. When he opened his eyes appeared to him we have a blurred image. Then to his ears came a strange sound. Sob. He blinked a few times to get rid of the mist from his eyes and looked at poczerwienioną from crying mother's face.
- Mom? What's happening? - Asked anxiously. He wanted to get up but was too weak.
- You see my son, if you were operating, the state of Kate ... She had deteriorated internal bleeding. Doctors tried to everything, but ... she ... she's dead. I no longer suffer.
- But ... but she promised. She promised me he will wait for me! - Cried out in despair .- It is not meant to be! Even with it not said goodbye.
spłynęły Tears of rage after his cheek. Mom boy hugged him tightly to her chest
- I know my son, I know. But Kate is better where it is. I do not feel pain but do not want to suffer.
- But it hurts, Mom, it hurts so bad.
both sat long and covering his comforting presence.
- I do not want to forget it, "said a trembling from kotłujących in the emotional voice.
- Do not forget, Barry ... was a person, which can not be forgotten. It was wonderful.
- I'll miss her.
Justin Wysocka and Sophia, born. May 15, 1993. in Staszow. Graduated from Public School No. 1 to them. Tadeusz Kosciuszko in Staszow. Currently, student IV High School. Hanka Sawicka in Kielce on the profile practitioners. In times of high school belonged to the Polish Scouting Association. Former hosts in the second Staszowska Scout Fellowship "Knieja. She has two older siblings - a sister and brother Damian Ewelina. He spends his free time to kick in reading their favorite books. It is a great fan of Carlos Ruiz Zafón and Jodie Picoult. Taste in music has a rather unconventional, because with his gentle disposition, is a fan of heavier sounds with a passion for listening-Linkin Park and System Of A Down. After graduating from high school, intends to study psychology.